What do you do when you loose your Mojo?

starting over giving up

So, you read these things, get all jacked up and go out in the world ready to kick some serious ass.

But what happens when you begin to loose that momentum? What do you do when you start to loose focus, and it becomes easier to stay inside, to curl up on the couch and watch a movie– when it’s FAR less attractive to get out there and DO something?

That was me. I’m going to be complete honest here. For the last 2 months, Mrskooylovesfitness has slowly become: Mrskooylovestheideaofworkingoutbutishavingahardtimebalancinglifetofullylovefitness.

There. I said it. That’s the first step, right? Isn’t what “they” always say? The first step to change is to admit there is a problem. And I do. It’s not like I’ve been in denial about it. If anything I’ve been downright depressed about it. If you look back in previous posts, it is obvious that my life took some pretty significant changes with regards to life events: first house, steps into career as a teacher, we recently bought a dog :)… etc. I’m not using those as excuses, they are facts. I guess what I’ve been struggling with is how to manage all the change, balance my time to ensure that I fit in EVERYTHING that I love so much!

What I’ve come to realize in the last week that I never really took into consideration is that I have a commute to and from work now. So– not only do I put in extra time in the classroom to DOMINATE as a teacher (and yes, I can confidently say that I work hard to kick ASS in that classroom) but I have about 2 hours (traffic pending) there and back to factor in for driving time!

“Steph. Puh-Leassseeee. 2 hours? you don’t even know how far I have to commute, you don’t have kids, blah blah blah”

I’m sorry. I love you, but I don’t care about other circumstances out there. For me– this adjustment as been hard, and consequently my fitness has been suffering. NOT COOL.

SO.

After having a chat with my dear friend DG, I got a little spark to light that fire back inside me that has been dwindling. Quite honestly, Thursday and Friday I worked the Sh*t out of my body. IT FELT FAN-FREAKING-TASTIC. Granted, I couldn’t move properly all weekend, but I’m so ready to kick it back into high gear tomorrow and for the rest of the week.

Sometimes it takes a conversation with someone you care about to help get that spark back when you’re struggling. Sometimes it’s hitting bottom and noticing something you’d rather not see in the mirror. For me– it wasn’t REALLY about hitting rock bottom. I’m a personal trainer. I know how to train my body, I KNOW what to eat, what not to– for me it was realizing that I’ve been taking a back seat to who I am.. and what I love. I was sitting back and watching other people dominate in life, and playing the “I wish” game.

WTF is that about?

I am NOT an “I wish” kind of woman. I’m an I WILL” woman.

So, I decided that I WILL get off my ass and start back into the routines that my body needs and my mind thrives off of.

F–U sideline Steph. You don’t belong out front, dictating the destructive direction of my fitness life.

I’m bringing back Mrskooylovesfitness, because it’s real and it’s what makes me the best version of me that I can be.

Expect more blogs from me.

I’m back.

Working Through Struggle to Gain Progress

struggle vs progress

Life has a funny way of happening all at once.

I’ve been missing putting together my blog, and trying to keep up with multiple posts per week, but alas… life has jumped right in front of me. It has filled my days up, and created minimal “down time” for me to do all the “extras” that I love to do!

I have recently started teaching for the school board (yay!) which is DEFINITELY my ultimate goal– but these last two weeks have been challenging. Leading up to this teaching opportunity, I’ve been focusing my energy making my fitness blog happen, attaining my fitness goals, coaching others to achieve their goals, preparing for my certification in prenatal & postnatal training, Oh yes… and sneaking in some time with hubby when I can!

The juggling act is little tricky at the moment. But, I keep telling myself to take it in stride, embrace the positive direction my life is going and know that once I iron out the kinks… I’ll find my groove again!

In some ways, I feel like I’ve been letting people down… not replying immediately to emails, checking in with clients to see how their progress is going. So I guess this is a small attempt at an apology for anyone who has noticed my disappearance.

However, I also want to put it out there:

In life, you make goals. On your journey to getting there, you’ll hit bumps and detours but you must keep focused on what you really want. ONCE you get there, you’ll face the biggest challenge of all:

MAINTAINING the GOAL.

There will be tests to see if this is what you REALLY want, and if it is, how badly are you going to work in order to keep it?

DO NOT LET THOSE TESTS BEAT YOU.

Each time you push through, take a breath and keep on working– you are getting stronger, and proving that you deserve what you want.

That’s all for today my friends, have a wonderful day… time for me to take on the day and prove that yeah… I’m busy as hell these days, but I’ll get through it, and at the end of the day– (and hubby can attest to this)
I ALWAYS FINISH THE TASK. I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT.